Category: Journal Entries

Having my mindset constantly change is annoying, It feels like I’m back in high-school in a way. It all started with my thyroid… I’m lacking the motivation to type right now though.

This morning was fairly annoying, I had to endure my kid being sick and the thought of having to wake up and be at work by 5 Am was a stressful feeling. The snow outside does help though unless I feel at ease when its cold and snowy. I truly dislike the summer months.

So as stabs as it sounds, I think I want a discord wife. Apparently it’s a new thing. I’m not sure… and .

Lately, I’ve been getting vibes from Sarah that she wants to be more sexually active, I’m not against it but my body isn’t moving in for it. I think the reason why I’m not jumping is that I’m not fully attracted, she mentioned she wanted me to lick her like an ice cream cone, but…

So I’ve come to realize I’ve always been one of those people that wants a true harem, I want a total of seven wives. With that realization, I feel that I have failed as a human, desires cannot really be squashed, then again it could just be ‘fantasy’? I mean, whats really the difference between…

Looking at the day by day grind, I’m partially happy and partially annoyed. Looking at my job, and what I do, I provide a service to students and faculty. To what end I wonder? for a simple pay check or for something more grand? hardly. What is starting to become clear, until my kids leave…

It really does amaze me now quickly a person can burn through money. In today society all you need to do is pusha button and boom, money spent. Still putting off getting my gears back in place for door dash. its starting to catch up to me.

Today I worked an extra hour to make up missing time. It seems having that extra hour to myself really does lighten my mood. by the by, I do not like Google chrome

I have been spending most of my free time this past few days listening/reading my ebooks. Also I have been picking up Diablo 3 again, I guess the threat that this could be the last season of the game makes it more playable for the moment, perhaps that is part of their gimmick. Right now…

Catching up on some entries to my journal I guess. I’m trying to get to the bottom of my lack of interest in sex. Is it mental, is there something wrong with me? is it the medications I’m taking? I know I’m not impotent, I can hold an erection but something else is wrong. Attraction…