So I’ve come to realize I’ve always been one of those people that wants a true harem, I want a total of seven wives. With that realization, I feel that I have failed as a human, desires cannot really be squashed, then again it could just be ‘fantasy’? I mean, whats really the difference between ‘Fantasy’ and ‘Desire’? Either way you look at it, it’s something you would personally want to happen that is not likely to happen, or you are scared to make happen. Maybe it’s a midlife crises thing? but then why did I want this years ago? I swear I’ve been (what I have been telling myself) turning back to normal ever since I’ve got my thyroid brought under control, the only downside is I’ve gained weight because of the controlled thyroid. I’ve slowly been remembering who I was, and what I liked. It’s almost like my mind is regressing in a way. So if polygamy was legal, I think I would feel more at ease about myself. Not much taht can be done about that II supposed.